Feelings are a pain in the ass.
They wait until things are going great,
then sneak up, and screw with your head.
But tonight, I deleted everything.
No more. I've decided. I've learned.
Thank you.
Hopefully, it won't always have to be this way.
Because, we both know how well we connect.
Perfect match.
For now, though, nothing can be.
It feels wrong to break something like this, but I can't stand here and torture myself.
You knew better. I wish I had thought things through.
But my emotions got the best of me. And I let you in.
I knew. I did it anyways.
I just hope this can still go away.
That the thoughts can still disappear.
I trust you.
How could I not?
Everything you say is so... right.
You make me do stupid things.
Things that, normally, I would pass for impossible.
I feel awful for what I did.
But, I was caught up.
You kept your head on straight,
I don’t even know if mine was connected.
Today, I figured you out.
Today, I found that I was completely irresponsible.
About my feelings,
And yours.
For that, I am so sorry.
It’s hard to distance myself from you.
Hopefully, now that I only have the past, and no chance for the future, I can become
Less obsessed.
I’m crazy for thinking I could have worked with this.
Now, it’s obvious.
I have to spare myself.
For once, I think I am worth it.
There is so much I would give up for you, but I won’t.
I know how wrong it would be for me to try.
Now that I understand.
You try for mystery, but I can see the real you.
You hate it.
Maybe it’s only easy because I’m so much like you.
I think the same way,
But I can’t act on those thoughts without a push.
You showed me.
I’m cutting the last tie.
And, I’ll be okay.